Monday, March 21, 2005

Ngelus dodo !!

This part of me you'll never know
The only thing i'll never show
Hopelessly i'll love you endlessly
Hopelessly i'll give you everything
But i won't give you up
I won't let you down
And i won't leave you falling
If the moment never comes

It's plain to see it's trying to speak
Cherished dream forever a sleep....

So little time so much to do !!
I rather spend my days with you
So little time so much to do !!
I'd like to spend one day with you
And if that day is not enough
Maybe we can stay in touch,
But i'm not making plans for tomorrow
for tomorrow never comes

You say i'm heartless
And you say i don't care
I used to be there for you
And you've said i seem so dead,that i've changed
But so have you
I put a shield upon you
I didn't mean to hurt you
I would have poisoned your mind
Never meant to make you cry
You've been so thoughtless
I can't see right trough you
You used to be there for me
But don't you leave and say goodbeye
'couse you have changed, and so have i
I never though that the time and the distance
Between us made you so much colder
I'll carry the world on my shoulder !!

So no body ever told you
How it was gonna be
So what'll happen to us
guess we have to wait and see
I jumped in to the river
Too many times to make it home
I'm out here on my own, and drifting all alone
If it doesn't show, give it time
To read between the lines
'Couse i see the storm getting closer
And the waves, they get so high
Seem everything we've ever known's here
Why must it drift away

I know the dream is over
But my heart just can't let go
Well i'll keep it down deep in my soul
And all the while i've been a fool
It just too good to be true

I have a problem that I can not explain
I have no reason why it should've been so plain
I have no questions but i sure have excuse
I lack the reason why I should be so confused
I know, how I feel when i'm around you
I don't know, how I feel when i'm around you

And i don't want you to feel sorry for me

You never gave us a chance to be


And i don't want you to be by my side
Just too tell me that everything's all right
'couse i feel i've did enough
To show you that i
Was willing to give and sacrifice
And was i the one who was lifting you up ?
When you thought your life had enough
There's nothing that i can do or say

Give it a spin
See if you can some how factor in
You know there's always more than one way
to say exactly what you mean to say
"Was i out of my head ?" . "Was i out of my mind ?"
How could i have ever been so blind ?
I was waiting for an indication
It was hard to find
Don't matter what i say , only what i do
I never mean to do bad things to you
So quiet but i finally woke up
If you're sad, then its time you spoke up too

This part of me you'll never know
The only thing i'll never show
Hopelessly i'll love you endlessly
Hopelessly i'll give you everything
But i won't give you up
I won't let you down
And i won't leave you falling
If the moment never comes

no sorrow or pity for leaving i feel

"It was taken from many song"

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

seharusnya sabtu lima maret

satu dari sekian mimpi yang selama ini ingin kumimpikan
telah terwujud dengan sedikit keragu-raguan
hanya mengalir dengan sendirinya,tak kusangka sama sekali
tapi kini mulai muncul satu pertanyaan baru,sungguh sangat aku gusar
sama sekali tak dapat kusingkirkan,tapi itulah isi kepalaku
tak bisa aku tahu hari ini atau nanti,atau aku sekarang
inilah untuk kesekian kalinya aku mencoba percaya padaku sendiri
mencoba meyakini apa yang ingin aku yakini,percaya apa yang ingin aku percaya mencari dunia dimana aku selalu bisa menemukan,membaca,menyentuh diriku
saat aku bisa mengatakan "inilah seharusnya aku " dengan bangga
dengan melupa akan bagian terburukku adalah aku
suatu saat akan begitu
sudah muak aku menipu semua disekitarku,mencoba menjadi apa yang disekitarku
inginni tentang aku,dan kupikir aku hanya menyia-nyia dengan menjadi harapan bagi
semua yang berharap aku menjadi sesempurna harapan mereka
aku sudah berusaha sampai aku berkubang kecewa diwajah mereka
aku sudah mencoba mengesampingkannya,menghela semua sakit itu
ada sesuatu yang harus ku hidup dengan
kini aku hanya ingin biarkan mereka tersenyum

" When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

And when the broken hearted people
Living in the world agree
There will be an answer, let it be
For though they may be parted
There is still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Yeah there will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

Let it be, let it be
Ah let it be, yeah let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
And when the night is cloudy
There is still a light that shines on me
Shine on until tomorrow, let it be
I wake up to the sound of music,
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Yeah let it be, let it be
Let it be, yeah let it be
Oh there will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, yeah let it be
Oh there will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Ah let it be, yeah let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be "