Di hari yang dianggap orang sebagai hari kemerdekaan para pembuat salah, pendosa dan pendusta ini aku sangat ingin mengakui segala kesalahan kepada orang-orang yang selama ini berarti namun seringkali kudustakan...
Bapak dan Ibu serta tiga saudariku, aku mohon maaf yang tak terhingga ( maaf karena aku masih saja menghabiskan harta keluarga untuk biaya sekolah yang tak pernah sesuai rencana, tapi bukankah memang itu "fungsi" seorang anak? :D )
Saudaraku-saudaraku sedari SMU ( Fadil, Huda, Agus, Tompel,Edi, A'ang )kalian kumaafkan karena selama ini kalian selalu saja merepotkan aku, sadar dooong!!! :P tetapi berjanjilah kalian tetap menjadi saudaraku, Teman!
Seseorang yang selalu saja marah-marah tanpa alasan, apalagi ketika aku hendak menyertakan namanya dalam bLog ini, sungguh aku sangat tidak mengerti penyebabnya!! tetapi tetaplah kau seperti siapa engkau; cantik , itulah yang membuat kau berbeda!
Gang-bang squad UM (Deny, Imam, Dekil eh..deki, Indra, eko) aku tak akan pernah meminta maaf kalian, karena seisi dunia tahu bahwa aku tak pernah mempunyai salah terhadap kalian, justru kalianlah yang wajib meminta maaf padaku!! dosa kalian sungguh sangat besar...:))
Neneku semata wayang dan pengawal pribadinya (Herris), ah no comment dah...
Teman-teman di kampuang (Rully, Setroh, Dadang, J-need, Gendok, pak tewo) semoga Allah swt tetap memberikan anugrah yang membuat kita mampu untuk tetap menghadirkan kegaduhan di kampuang...aku juga tak kan pernah meminta maaf kepada kalian karena aku juga tidak pernah mempunyai kesalahan kepada kalian..
Rekan kerja dan semua orang yang kukenal yang tak mungkin untuk kusebutkan satu-satu, kuharap kalian segera meminta maaf kepadaku..
Mohon maaf, tulus dari hati paling jauh....
(Tapi ini kok lebih mirip ucapan terimakasih di cover kaset ya? ah persetan....)
Sunday, October 30, 2005
Monday, October 10, 2005
......
Sekiranya mereka berteriak; menusuk-nusuk
Sekehendak apa yang ada di hati terdalam
Sekali-kali api-api tak akan padam;
Seketika sungai-sungai tak juga segera mengalir
" Bukan semestinya aku menari-nari sepanjang hari "
" Seronok putri-putri ini, bukan hayal lagi?;
Bahagia kelak atau sedih saat ini, bukan sesuatu kudis di kulit
Tamparan bahkan pelukan, bukankah hanya rasa manis atau pahit?
Teruslah tikus-tikus menenggak air comberan
Ataulah engkau merajai dunia-dunia semua;
Membakar kayu-kayu kering bahkan dahan-dahan
Terang bulanpun tak akan merubah suatu apa!!
Sumpah yang tak pernah dapat terbunuh, atau;
Kebohongan akan hati yang selalu terdustai
Memohon-mohon agar di beri sedikit sakit hati
Kala-kala terhina adalah tawa dalam tangisan terakhir!
Biar saja berkaca-kaca mata para tikus
Terburai semua isi perut mereka, tertanam segala kemarahan
Jalan ini tak pernah mungkin terakhiri
Kisah Binatang jalang; tidak saat sekarang atau kapanpun
Sekehendak apa yang ada di hati terdalam
Sekali-kali api-api tak akan padam;
Seketika sungai-sungai tak juga segera mengalir
" Bukan semestinya aku menari-nari sepanjang hari "
" Seronok putri-putri ini, bukan hayal lagi?;
Bahagia kelak atau sedih saat ini, bukan sesuatu kudis di kulit
Tamparan bahkan pelukan, bukankah hanya rasa manis atau pahit?
Teruslah tikus-tikus menenggak air comberan
Ataulah engkau merajai dunia-dunia semua;
Membakar kayu-kayu kering bahkan dahan-dahan
Terang bulanpun tak akan merubah suatu apa!!
Sumpah yang tak pernah dapat terbunuh, atau;
Kebohongan akan hati yang selalu terdustai
Memohon-mohon agar di beri sedikit sakit hati
Kala-kala terhina adalah tawa dalam tangisan terakhir!
Biar saja berkaca-kaca mata para tikus
Terburai semua isi perut mereka, tertanam segala kemarahan
Jalan ini tak pernah mungkin terakhiri
Kisah Binatang jalang; tidak saat sekarang atau kapanpun
Friday, September 30, 2005
09.30, 2005 ( 01.17 )
And now, the end is near;
And so I face the final curtain.
My friend, I'll say it clear,
I'll state my case, of which I'm certain.
I've lived a life that's full.
I've traveled each and ev'ry highway;
And more, much more than this,
I did it my way.
Regrets, I've had a few;
But then again, too few to mention.
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption.
I planned each charted course;
Each careful step along the byway,
But more, much more than this,
I did it my way.
Yes, there were times, I'm sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew.
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall;
And did it my way.
I've loved, I've laughed and cried.
I've had my fill; my share of losing.
And now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.
To think I did all that;
And may I say - not in a shy way,
No, oh no not me,
I did it my way.
For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels;
And not the words of one who kneels.
The record shows I took the blows -
And did it my way!
Salah satu karya terindah yang pernah saya ketahui, saya pikir !!
And so I face the final curtain.
My friend, I'll say it clear,
I'll state my case, of which I'm certain.
I've lived a life that's full.
I've traveled each and ev'ry highway;
And more, much more than this,
I did it my way.
Regrets, I've had a few;
But then again, too few to mention.
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption.
I planned each charted course;
Each careful step along the byway,
But more, much more than this,
I did it my way.
Yes, there were times, I'm sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew.
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall;
And did it my way.
I've loved, I've laughed and cried.
I've had my fill; my share of losing.
And now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.
To think I did all that;
And may I say - not in a shy way,
No, oh no not me,
I did it my way.
For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels;
And not the words of one who kneels.
The record shows I took the blows -
And did it my way!
Salah satu karya terindah yang pernah saya ketahui, saya pikir !!
Monday, August 29, 2005
Untuku dan sia-sia waktuku
Angin manatap awan yang terus menjauh,
Sayu matanya sedikit lebam, suram; penuh sekali penyesalan
Angin terus menatap awan dengan tajam
Layu bibirnya tak lagi mampu berbicara, kosong sudah akan hatinya
Ini sedikit cerita sedih, siang itu
Tertatap awan yang berbaju begitu indah, seperti biasa
Bermata bening, warnanya terang tak terbilang cantiknya
Melebihi segala bayangan selama ini, begitu indah
Angin diam membatu membeku, berbinar binatang ini
Kemana perginya semua waktu selama ini
Kemana hilangnya segala hari baik itu
Belum sempat ia mengumpat, sajak ditulisnya kemarin sore
sebegitu cepat terang melompat; tak nampak kelebatnya !
Sejuk sedekat ini tak pernah dirasanya setetespun tidak !
Di depan mata; tak terlihat menyentuh pun bukan
Mencoba mencarinya di hati selain dia, terus !
Meraba arang yang selalu membuatnya legam, apakah penghalang ?
Sebab ia tak melihat; tak terlihat; tak menginginkan
Buat awan kembali mendekap, teriak luluh hatinya
Janjikan segala apa yang sanggup menghangatkan;
Pangkas sedikit tangkai-tangkai kerdil, binasakan seluruhnya
Yang terdalam telah tergali, segala yang paling terdalam
Apa kata si otak ?
Hidup terburuk sekalian telah sirna
Tak akan bersama seperti mula-mula
Sedikitlah engkau menyimak pilihan-pilihan
Saksikan ! Bukan dia, tak kan dia lagi ! tersia-sialah !
Sebilah pisau menyayat, sebatang lagi kayu membakar
Hilang lentera sedetik sekejap, cepat !
Hendak pada siapa Angin mengikut ?
Tak rela ia; awan termiliki, sedangkan tak ingin memiliki pula !
Inilah angin, bodoh bahkan keji !
Berharap bersisa yang telah dienyahkan
Mencoba mendengar dengan telinga tuli
Sedikit pula mencoba melainkan bermimpi tanpa pula tidur !
Kapan ia terjaga, sedih menderu' kecewalah dia !
Sayu matanya sedikit lebam, suram; penuh sekali penyesalan
Angin terus menatap awan dengan tajam
Layu bibirnya tak lagi mampu berbicara, kosong sudah akan hatinya
Ini sedikit cerita sedih, siang itu
Tertatap awan yang berbaju begitu indah, seperti biasa
Bermata bening, warnanya terang tak terbilang cantiknya
Melebihi segala bayangan selama ini, begitu indah
Angin diam membatu membeku, berbinar binatang ini
Kemana perginya semua waktu selama ini
Kemana hilangnya segala hari baik itu
Belum sempat ia mengumpat, sajak ditulisnya kemarin sore
sebegitu cepat terang melompat; tak nampak kelebatnya !
Sejuk sedekat ini tak pernah dirasanya setetespun tidak !
Di depan mata; tak terlihat menyentuh pun bukan
Mencoba mencarinya di hati selain dia, terus !
Meraba arang yang selalu membuatnya legam, apakah penghalang ?
Sebab ia tak melihat; tak terlihat; tak menginginkan
Buat awan kembali mendekap, teriak luluh hatinya
Janjikan segala apa yang sanggup menghangatkan;
Pangkas sedikit tangkai-tangkai kerdil, binasakan seluruhnya
Yang terdalam telah tergali, segala yang paling terdalam
Apa kata si otak ?
Hidup terburuk sekalian telah sirna
Tak akan bersama seperti mula-mula
Sedikitlah engkau menyimak pilihan-pilihan
Saksikan ! Bukan dia, tak kan dia lagi ! tersia-sialah !
Sebilah pisau menyayat, sebatang lagi kayu membakar
Hilang lentera sedetik sekejap, cepat !
Hendak pada siapa Angin mengikut ?
Tak rela ia; awan termiliki, sedangkan tak ingin memiliki pula !
Inilah angin, bodoh bahkan keji !
Berharap bersisa yang telah dienyahkan
Mencoba mendengar dengan telinga tuli
Sedikit pula mencoba melainkan bermimpi tanpa pula tidur !
Kapan ia terjaga, sedih menderu' kecewalah dia !
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
Bunga adinda
Air seteguk tak lenyapkan tandus
Angin sehembus belum menguraikan
Sudah mencoba sederas hujan
Menarik sekeras jeram..
Tak roboh juga ilalang itu..
Kadang menekuk sebungkuk mangkuk
Mewangi seharum bangkai tanpa belatung
Selama itu mereka tetap tersedak..
Terperangah sesaat, lalu kembali terkoyak..
Semata bukan itu yang aku inginkan
Bukan sinar terang atau hari tanpa malam..
Bukan redup senja atau pagi tanpa embun
Sebutir pasir pun tak akan kutelankan
Suatu waktu aku ingin membelai secuil dia
Sekala-kala aku hendak menarikan muka
Lepaskan aku membaca sajak ku sendiri, bunga..
Aku mengingin sekejap aku hendak menyepah
Aku tak menyadar sesedikitpun aku,
Ah, tidak juga engkau..
Angin sehembus belum menguraikan
Sudah mencoba sederas hujan
Menarik sekeras jeram..
Tak roboh juga ilalang itu..
Kadang menekuk sebungkuk mangkuk
Mewangi seharum bangkai tanpa belatung
Selama itu mereka tetap tersedak..
Terperangah sesaat, lalu kembali terkoyak..
Semata bukan itu yang aku inginkan
Bukan sinar terang atau hari tanpa malam..
Bukan redup senja atau pagi tanpa embun
Sebutir pasir pun tak akan kutelankan
Suatu waktu aku ingin membelai secuil dia
Sekala-kala aku hendak menarikan muka
Lepaskan aku membaca sajak ku sendiri, bunga..
Aku mengingin sekejap aku hendak menyepah
Aku tak menyadar sesedikitpun aku,
Ah, tidak juga engkau..
Sunday, August 21, 2005
Demi...
Bukan harapan tentang sedikit kebahagiaan..
Bukan sehelai tawa atau sepucuk senyum manis...
Bukan seonggok kerinduan atau secuil pertemuan...
Aku sangat ingin lebih bukan berlebih..
Bukan cahaya yang selalu hendak meredup...
Bukan setetes air yang akan membeku..
Bukan sajak berisi tiupan angin atau rintikan hujan..
Aku sangat ingin lebih bukan berlebih..
Tak pelak aku selalu akan berharap..
Membahagiakan diri dalam kepengecutan..
Memuaskan sekalian pikiran picik
Aku sangat ingin lebih bukan berlebih..
Berasa tak akan ada yang menyelamatkan
Tak pernah manis itu lama menghampiri..
Tak pernah selama yang aku pikirkan !
Terjatuh dalam kubangan rasa sakit
Terlelap wangi bunga yang sangat aku benci
Demi segala hidup aku sangat menantinya..
Buat aku sedikit mendongakan kepala, sayang..
Kutampakan sedikit, apa arti mendekap erat !
Atas segala nyawa aku sangat ingin di inginkan..
Tak berarti apa yang telah berarti,
Sebab, telah ada tak terbilang kekosongan sejak itu
Tak terperihkan seluruh kebohongan kita,
Berlayangkan mimpi buruk yang selalu kita dengungkan !
Bukan sekeji aku seorang pencampak !
Bukan seolah aku seorang pengingkar !
Tak seluruh maksudku mendusta kita..
Inilah aku dengan segala aku..demi kita !!
Bukan sehelai tawa atau sepucuk senyum manis...
Bukan seonggok kerinduan atau secuil pertemuan...
Aku sangat ingin lebih bukan berlebih..
Bukan cahaya yang selalu hendak meredup...
Bukan setetes air yang akan membeku..
Bukan sajak berisi tiupan angin atau rintikan hujan..
Aku sangat ingin lebih bukan berlebih..
Tak pelak aku selalu akan berharap..
Membahagiakan diri dalam kepengecutan..
Memuaskan sekalian pikiran picik
Aku sangat ingin lebih bukan berlebih..
Berasa tak akan ada yang menyelamatkan
Tak pernah manis itu lama menghampiri..
Tak pernah selama yang aku pikirkan !
Terjatuh dalam kubangan rasa sakit
Terlelap wangi bunga yang sangat aku benci
Demi segala hidup aku sangat menantinya..
Buat aku sedikit mendongakan kepala, sayang..
Kutampakan sedikit, apa arti mendekap erat !
Atas segala nyawa aku sangat ingin di inginkan..
Tak berarti apa yang telah berarti,
Sebab, telah ada tak terbilang kekosongan sejak itu
Tak terperihkan seluruh kebohongan kita,
Berlayangkan mimpi buruk yang selalu kita dengungkan !
Bukan sekeji aku seorang pencampak !
Bukan seolah aku seorang pengingkar !
Tak seluruh maksudku mendusta kita..
Inilah aku dengan segala aku..demi kita !!
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
" More than i think about.."
He expense of spirit in a waste of shame
Is lust in action; and till action, lust
Is perjured, murderous, bloody, full of blame,
Savage, extreme, rude, cruel, not to trust;
Enjoy'd no sooner but despised straight;
Past reason hunted; and no sooner had,
Past reason hated, as a swallowed bait,
On purpose laid to make the taker mad:
Mad in pursuit, and in possession so;
Had, having, and in quest to have, extreme;
A bliss in proof, and proved, a very woe;
Before, a joy proposed; behind, a dream.
All this the world well knows; yet none knows well
To shun the heaven that leads men to this hell.
When, in disgrace with Fortune and men's eyes,
I all alone beweep my outcast state,
And trouble deaf heaven with my bootless cries,
And look upon myself and curse my fate,
Wishing me like to one more rich in hope,
Featured like him, like him with friends possessed,
Desiring this man's art, and that man's scope,
With what I most enjoy contented least,
Yet in these thoughts myself almost despising,
Haply I think on thee, and then my state,
Like to the lark at break of day arising
From sullen earth, sings hymns at heaven's gate
For thy sweet love remembered such wealth brings,
That then I scorn to change my state with kings.
When to the sessions of sweet silent thought
I summon up remembrance of things past,
I sigh the lack of many a thing I sought,
And with old woes new wail my dear time's waste;
Then can I drown an eye, unused to flow,
For precious friends hid in death's dateless night,
And weep afresh love's long-since-cancelled woe,
And moan th' expense of many a vanished sight;
Then can I grieve at grievances foregone,
And heavily from woe to woe tell o'er
The sad account of fore-bemoanèd moan,
Which I new pay as if not paid before.
But if the while I think on thee, dear friend,
All losses are restored and sorrows end.
Is lust in action; and till action, lust
Is perjured, murderous, bloody, full of blame,
Savage, extreme, rude, cruel, not to trust;
Enjoy'd no sooner but despised straight;
Past reason hunted; and no sooner had,
Past reason hated, as a swallowed bait,
On purpose laid to make the taker mad:
Mad in pursuit, and in possession so;
Had, having, and in quest to have, extreme;
A bliss in proof, and proved, a very woe;
Before, a joy proposed; behind, a dream.
All this the world well knows; yet none knows well
To shun the heaven that leads men to this hell.
When, in disgrace with Fortune and men's eyes,
I all alone beweep my outcast state,
And trouble deaf heaven with my bootless cries,
And look upon myself and curse my fate,
Wishing me like to one more rich in hope,
Featured like him, like him with friends possessed,
Desiring this man's art, and that man's scope,
With what I most enjoy contented least,
Yet in these thoughts myself almost despising,
Haply I think on thee, and then my state,
Like to the lark at break of day arising
From sullen earth, sings hymns at heaven's gate
For thy sweet love remembered such wealth brings,
That then I scorn to change my state with kings.
When to the sessions of sweet silent thought
I summon up remembrance of things past,
I sigh the lack of many a thing I sought,
And with old woes new wail my dear time's waste;
Then can I drown an eye, unused to flow,
For precious friends hid in death's dateless night,
And weep afresh love's long-since-cancelled woe,
And moan th' expense of many a vanished sight;
Then can I grieve at grievances foregone,
And heavily from woe to woe tell o'er
The sad account of fore-bemoanèd moan,
Which I new pay as if not paid before.
But if the while I think on thee, dear friend,
All losses are restored and sorrows end.
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
" Bulan "
Sudah aku lukiskan suram cahaya bulan malam ini
Hampir binasa aku memandanginya sekian waktu
Berharap aku akan di sinarinya dengan redup
Letih seluruh badan, ketika bulan manampikan segala mimpi malam ini
Pengar tak mampu lagi kurasa, hambar tak pernah kuhiraukan
Jika hendak aku terluka karena berangan secuil
Ku balutkan dengan sedih mendera, aku menerima tanpa akan berkata
Tanpa akan menangis, tanpa pula akan tertawa
Tewas sudah lidah ini untuk merasa, kelu oleh peluh
Beku oleh semua omong kosong, oleh bualan konyol para keparat
Yang tak pernah mau menerima langit memang buram hari ini
Cahaya tak mampu menerangi, badai tak sanggup lagi mengoyak dada mereka
Buta akan kenyataan pahit yang akan mereka hadapi
Tak mungkin lagi aku menerimanya, kencingi saja hatiku ini
Ludahi wajahku, atau apapun yang membuat tersenyum
Sungguh, aku tak mungkin lagi menerimanya
Tidak saat ini......
Hampir binasa aku memandanginya sekian waktu
Berharap aku akan di sinarinya dengan redup
Letih seluruh badan, ketika bulan manampikan segala mimpi malam ini
Pengar tak mampu lagi kurasa, hambar tak pernah kuhiraukan
Jika hendak aku terluka karena berangan secuil
Ku balutkan dengan sedih mendera, aku menerima tanpa akan berkata
Tanpa akan menangis, tanpa pula akan tertawa
Tewas sudah lidah ini untuk merasa, kelu oleh peluh
Beku oleh semua omong kosong, oleh bualan konyol para keparat
Yang tak pernah mau menerima langit memang buram hari ini
Cahaya tak mampu menerangi, badai tak sanggup lagi mengoyak dada mereka
Buta akan kenyataan pahit yang akan mereka hadapi
Tak mungkin lagi aku menerimanya, kencingi saja hatiku ini
Ludahi wajahku, atau apapun yang membuat tersenyum
Sungguh, aku tak mungkin lagi menerimanya
Tidak saat ini......
Monday, June 20, 2005
"Hujan Kemarin Lusa"
Pagi ini hujan,
Siang ini..hujan kembali datang, deras sekali aku pikir
Mendung itu seolah menghujat aku dengan sama sekali tak mau peduli
Tak sedikitpun mau menerima waktu yang aku ludahkan selama ini
Petir itu dengan beringas, menghantam isi hatiku
Hati yang sangat aku sayangi, Hatiku...
Telah Ku babat lantak semua kasih, ku bantai habis semua waktu yang ada
Aku enyahkan sekalian kenangan, ku bakar segala pengharapan
Tak pernah aku sesendu hari ini...
Aku tak pernah menghirau mengalirnya air dihadapku
Tak pernah mengiba hangatnya api akan datang
Aku tak ingin wangi mengubur busuk badanku
Tak hendak aku meniduri sesal di telapak tanganku
Sekali pun aku tak beringin menyapu semua sampah di perutku...
Bilamana waktu itu akan manghampiri aku lagi
Aku bersiul demi segala nyayian di mulutku
Aku akan memeluk dengan erat segala senyum itu
Aku akan mencium bibir ini tanpa memejamkan mata lagi
Demi segala kerlingan mataku, aku akan menyelimutinya dengan hangat
Menjaganya dari angin dan hujan.....sampai aku tak mampu lagi....
Siang ini..hujan kembali datang, deras sekali aku pikir
Mendung itu seolah menghujat aku dengan sama sekali tak mau peduli
Tak sedikitpun mau menerima waktu yang aku ludahkan selama ini
Petir itu dengan beringas, menghantam isi hatiku
Hati yang sangat aku sayangi, Hatiku...
Telah Ku babat lantak semua kasih, ku bantai habis semua waktu yang ada
Aku enyahkan sekalian kenangan, ku bakar segala pengharapan
Tak pernah aku sesendu hari ini...
Aku tak pernah menghirau mengalirnya air dihadapku
Tak pernah mengiba hangatnya api akan datang
Aku tak ingin wangi mengubur busuk badanku
Tak hendak aku meniduri sesal di telapak tanganku
Sekali pun aku tak beringin menyapu semua sampah di perutku...
Bilamana waktu itu akan manghampiri aku lagi
Aku bersiul demi segala nyayian di mulutku
Aku akan memeluk dengan erat segala senyum itu
Aku akan mencium bibir ini tanpa memejamkan mata lagi
Demi segala kerlingan mataku, aku akan menyelimutinya dengan hangat
Menjaganya dari angin dan hujan.....sampai aku tak mampu lagi....
Saturday, June 04, 2005
Angels may run
I wish that icould be something
I wonder if i had some place to home
I thing that i'll get something that i've been search
"Back to Good"
It's nothing, it's so normal you
Just stand there I could say so much
But I don't go there cuz I don't want to
I was thinking if you were lonely
Maybe we could leave here and no one would know
At least not to the point that we would think so
Everyone here, knows everyone here is thinking about
Somebody else
It's best if we all keep it under our heads
I couldn't tell, if anyone here was feeling the way I do
But I'm lonely now, and I don't know how
To get it back to good
This don't mean that, you own me
This ain't no good, in fact it's phony as hell
But things worked out just like you wanted too
If you see me out you don't know me
Try to turn your head, try to give me some room
To figure out just what I'm going to do
And everyone here, hates everyone here for doing just like
They do
It's best if we all keep this quiet instead
And I couldn't tell, why everyone here was doing me like
They do
But I'm sorry now, and I don't know how
To get it back to good
Everyone here, is wondering what it's like to be with
Somebody else
Everyone here's to blame, everyone here
Gets caught up in the pleasure of the pain, everyone hides
Shades of shame, but looking inside we're the same, we're
The same
And we're all grown now, but we don't know how
To get it back to good
Everyone here, knows everyone here is thinking 'bout
Somebody else
It's best if we all keep this under our heads
I couldn't tell, if anyone here was feeling the way I do
But it's over now, and I don't know how, it's over now
There's no getting back to good
I wonder if i had some place to home
I thing that i'll get something that i've been search
"Back to Good"
It's nothing, it's so normal you
Just stand there I could say so much
But I don't go there cuz I don't want to
I was thinking if you were lonely
Maybe we could leave here and no one would know
At least not to the point that we would think so
Everyone here, knows everyone here is thinking about
Somebody else
It's best if we all keep it under our heads
I couldn't tell, if anyone here was feeling the way I do
But I'm lonely now, and I don't know how
To get it back to good
This don't mean that, you own me
This ain't no good, in fact it's phony as hell
But things worked out just like you wanted too
If you see me out you don't know me
Try to turn your head, try to give me some room
To figure out just what I'm going to do
And everyone here, hates everyone here for doing just like
They do
It's best if we all keep this quiet instead
And I couldn't tell, why everyone here was doing me like
They do
But I'm sorry now, and I don't know how
To get it back to good
Everyone here, is wondering what it's like to be with
Somebody else
Everyone here's to blame, everyone here
Gets caught up in the pleasure of the pain, everyone hides
Shades of shame, but looking inside we're the same, we're
The same
And we're all grown now, but we don't know how
To get it back to good
Everyone here, knows everyone here is thinking 'bout
Somebody else
It's best if we all keep this under our heads
I couldn't tell, if anyone here was feeling the way I do
But it's over now, and I don't know how, it's over now
There's no getting back to good
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
"Sweetest Goodbye"
Where you are seems to be
As far as an eternity
Outstretched arms open hearts
And if it never ends then when do we start?
I'll never leave you behind
Or treat you unkind
I know you understand
And with a tear in my eye
Give me the sweetest goodbye
That I ever did receive
Pushing forward and arching back
Bring me closer to heart attack
Say goodbye and just fly away
When you comeback
I have some things to say
How does it feel to know you never have to be alone
When you get home
There must be someplace here that only you and I could go
So I can show you how I
Dream away everyday
Try so hard to disregard
The rhythm of the rain that drops
And coincides with the beating of my heart
I'll never leave you behind
Or treat you unkind
I know you understand
And with a tear in my eye
Give me the sweetest goodbye
That I ever did receive
Pushing forward and arching back
Bring me closer to heart attack
Say goodbye and just fly away
When you comeback
I have some things to say
How does it feel to know you never have to be alone
When you get home
There must be someplace here that only you and I could go
So I can show you how I feel
"Trimakasih buat Maroon 5 atas karya indahnya,salut dan semoga Tuhan memberkati orang-orang yang tersakiti hatinya"
As far as an eternity
Outstretched arms open hearts
And if it never ends then when do we start?
I'll never leave you behind
Or treat you unkind
I know you understand
And with a tear in my eye
Give me the sweetest goodbye
That I ever did receive
Pushing forward and arching back
Bring me closer to heart attack
Say goodbye and just fly away
When you comeback
I have some things to say
How does it feel to know you never have to be alone
When you get home
There must be someplace here that only you and I could go
So I can show you how I
Dream away everyday
Try so hard to disregard
The rhythm of the rain that drops
And coincides with the beating of my heart
I'll never leave you behind
Or treat you unkind
I know you understand
And with a tear in my eye
Give me the sweetest goodbye
That I ever did receive
Pushing forward and arching back
Bring me closer to heart attack
Say goodbye and just fly away
When you comeback
I have some things to say
How does it feel to know you never have to be alone
When you get home
There must be someplace here that only you and I could go
So I can show you how I feel
"Trimakasih buat Maroon 5 atas karya indahnya,salut dan semoga Tuhan memberkati orang-orang yang tersakiti hatinya"
Monday, April 25, 2005
Karya si "Indah"
senja b'gulir menggantikan pijar mentari yg menyiksa
pun saat rembulan memaksa menyembulkan redupnya
aq lebih memilih untuk membisu
karna nyatanya bibir dan lidah q t'lanjur kelu
sungguh...pikir dan hati q tak bisa kompromi
untuk apa dan siapa aq b'diri?
menanti di sudut kelam pemikiran q sendiri
aneh! jika memang bathin q merasa tak nyaman kenapa tak p'gi saja?
Menitipkan genggaman harapan q di likuan hari yang disana hanya ada aq dan aq lg!
NIH POSTING NYANG NYORET TEMAN GWA! ORANGNYA BUAWEL BUANGET BRUR!TAPI TAU KO' TULISANNYA JUwELEK GINI!!BY THE WAY HER NAME IS Indah!(biangnya anak bawel!!)..thanks buat anton dah sudi corat-coret dikit,meski jelek... he...
pun saat rembulan memaksa menyembulkan redupnya
aq lebih memilih untuk membisu
karna nyatanya bibir dan lidah q t'lanjur kelu
sungguh...pikir dan hati q tak bisa kompromi
untuk apa dan siapa aq b'diri?
menanti di sudut kelam pemikiran q sendiri
aneh! jika memang bathin q merasa tak nyaman kenapa tak p'gi saja?
Menitipkan genggaman harapan q di likuan hari yang disana hanya ada aq dan aq lg!
NIH POSTING NYANG NYORET TEMAN GWA! ORANGNYA BUAWEL BUANGET BRUR!TAPI TAU KO' TULISANNYA JUwELEK GINI!!BY THE WAY HER NAME IS Indah!(biangnya anak bawel!!)..thanks buat anton dah sudi corat-coret dikit,meski jelek... he...
Monday, March 21, 2005
Ngelus dodo !!
This part of me you'll never know
The only thing i'll never show
Hopelessly i'll love you endlessly
Hopelessly i'll give you everything
But i won't give you up
I won't let you down
And i won't leave you falling
If the moment never comes
It's plain to see it's trying to speak
Cherished dream forever a sleep....
So little time so much to do !!
I rather spend my days with you
So little time so much to do !!
I'd like to spend one day with you
And if that day is not enough
Maybe we can stay in touch,
But i'm not making plans for tomorrow
for tomorrow never comes
You say i'm heartless
And you say i don't care
I used to be there for you
And you've said i seem so dead,that i've changed
But so have you
I put a shield upon you
I didn't mean to hurt you
I would have poisoned your mind
Never meant to make you cry
You've been so thoughtless
I can't see right trough you
You used to be there for me
But don't you leave and say goodbeye
'couse you have changed, and so have i
I never though that the time and the distance
Between us made you so much colder
I'll carry the world on my shoulder !!
So no body ever told you
How it was gonna be
So what'll happen to us
guess we have to wait and see
I jumped in to the river
Too many times to make it home
I'm out here on my own, and drifting all alone
If it doesn't show, give it time
To read between the lines
'Couse i see the storm getting closer
And the waves, they get so high
Seem everything we've ever known's here
Why must it drift away
I know the dream is over
But my heart just can't let go
Well i'll keep it down deep in my soul
And all the while i've been a fool
It just too good to be true
I have a problem that I can not explain
I have no reason why it should've been so plain
I have no questions but i sure have excuse
I lack the reason why I should be so confused
I know, how I feel when i'm around you
I don't know, how I feel when i'm around you
And i don't want you to feel sorry for me
And i don't want you to be by my side
Just too tell me that everything's all right
'couse i feel i've did enough
To show you that i
Was willing to give and sacrifice
And was i the one who was lifting you up ?
When you thought your life had enough
There's nothing that i can do or say
Give it a spin
See if you can some how factor in
You know there's always more than one way
to say exactly what you mean to say
"Was i out of my head ?" . "Was i out of my mind ?"
How could i have ever been so blind ?
I was waiting for an indication
It was hard to find
Don't matter what i say , only what i do
I never mean to do bad things to you
So quiet but i finally woke up
If you're sad, then its time you spoke up too
This part of me you'll never know
The only thing i'll never show
Hopelessly i'll love you endlessly
Hopelessly i'll give you everything
But i won't give you up
I won't let you down
And i won't leave you falling
If the moment never comes
no sorrow or pity for leaving i feel
"It was taken from many song"
The only thing i'll never show
Hopelessly i'll love you endlessly
Hopelessly i'll give you everything
But i won't give you up
I won't let you down
And i won't leave you falling
If the moment never comes
It's plain to see it's trying to speak
Cherished dream forever a sleep....
So little time so much to do !!
I rather spend my days with you
So little time so much to do !!
I'd like to spend one day with you
And if that day is not enough
Maybe we can stay in touch,
But i'm not making plans for tomorrow
for tomorrow never comes
You say i'm heartless
And you say i don't care
I used to be there for you
And you've said i seem so dead,that i've changed
But so have you
I put a shield upon you
I didn't mean to hurt you
I would have poisoned your mind
Never meant to make you cry
You've been so thoughtless
I can't see right trough you
You used to be there for me
But don't you leave and say goodbeye
'couse you have changed, and so have i
I never though that the time and the distance
Between us made you so much colder
I'll carry the world on my shoulder !!
So no body ever told you
How it was gonna be
So what'll happen to us
guess we have to wait and see
I jumped in to the river
Too many times to make it home
I'm out here on my own, and drifting all alone
If it doesn't show, give it time
To read between the lines
'Couse i see the storm getting closer
And the waves, they get so high
Seem everything we've ever known's here
Why must it drift away
I know the dream is over
But my heart just can't let go
Well i'll keep it down deep in my soul
And all the while i've been a fool
It just too good to be true
I have a problem that I can not explain
I have no reason why it should've been so plain
I have no questions but i sure have excuse
I lack the reason why I should be so confused
I know, how I feel when i'm around you
I don't know, how I feel when i'm around you
And i don't want you to feel sorry for me
You never gave us a chance to be
And i don't want you to be by my side
Just too tell me that everything's all right
'couse i feel i've did enough
To show you that i
Was willing to give and sacrifice
And was i the one who was lifting you up ?
When you thought your life had enough
There's nothing that i can do or say
Give it a spin
See if you can some how factor in
You know there's always more than one way
to say exactly what you mean to say
"Was i out of my head ?" . "Was i out of my mind ?"
How could i have ever been so blind ?
I was waiting for an indication
It was hard to find
Don't matter what i say , only what i do
I never mean to do bad things to you
So quiet but i finally woke up
If you're sad, then its time you spoke up too
This part of me you'll never know
The only thing i'll never show
Hopelessly i'll love you endlessly
Hopelessly i'll give you everything
But i won't give you up
I won't let you down
And i won't leave you falling
If the moment never comes
no sorrow or pity for leaving i feel
"It was taken from many song"
Tuesday, March 08, 2005
seharusnya sabtu lima maret
satu dari sekian mimpi yang selama ini ingin kumimpikan
telah terwujud dengan sedikit keragu-raguan
hanya mengalir dengan sendirinya,tak kusangka sama sekali
tapi kini mulai muncul satu pertanyaan baru,sungguh sangat aku gusar
sama sekali tak dapat kusingkirkan,tapi itulah isi kepalaku
tak bisa aku tahu hari ini atau nanti,atau aku sekarang
inilah untuk kesekian kalinya aku mencoba percaya padaku sendiri
mencoba meyakini apa yang ingin aku yakini,percaya apa yang ingin aku percaya mencari dunia dimana aku selalu bisa menemukan,membaca,menyentuh diriku
saat aku bisa mengatakan "inilah seharusnya aku " dengan bangga
dengan melupa akan bagian terburukku adalah aku
suatu saat akan begitu
sudah muak aku menipu semua disekitarku,mencoba menjadi apa yang disekitarku
inginni tentang aku,dan kupikir aku hanya menyia-nyia dengan menjadi harapan bagi
semua yang berharap aku menjadi sesempurna harapan mereka
aku sudah berusaha sampai aku berkubang kecewa diwajah mereka
aku sudah mencoba mengesampingkannya,menghela semua sakit itu
ada sesuatu yang harus ku hidup dengan
kini aku hanya ingin biarkan mereka tersenyum
" When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
And when the broken hearted people
Living in the world agree
There will be an answer, let it be
For though they may be parted
There is still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Yeah there will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Ah let it be, yeah let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
And when the night is cloudy
There is still a light that shines on me
Shine on until tomorrow, let it be
I wake up to the sound of music,
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Yeah let it be, let it be
Let it be, yeah let it be
Oh there will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, yeah let it be
Oh there will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Ah let it be, yeah let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be "
telah terwujud dengan sedikit keragu-raguan
hanya mengalir dengan sendirinya,tak kusangka sama sekali
tapi kini mulai muncul satu pertanyaan baru,sungguh sangat aku gusar
sama sekali tak dapat kusingkirkan,tapi itulah isi kepalaku
tak bisa aku tahu hari ini atau nanti,atau aku sekarang
inilah untuk kesekian kalinya aku mencoba percaya padaku sendiri
mencoba meyakini apa yang ingin aku yakini,percaya apa yang ingin aku percaya mencari dunia dimana aku selalu bisa menemukan,membaca,menyentuh diriku
saat aku bisa mengatakan "inilah seharusnya aku " dengan bangga
dengan melupa akan bagian terburukku adalah aku
suatu saat akan begitu
sudah muak aku menipu semua disekitarku,mencoba menjadi apa yang disekitarku
inginni tentang aku,dan kupikir aku hanya menyia-nyia dengan menjadi harapan bagi
semua yang berharap aku menjadi sesempurna harapan mereka
aku sudah berusaha sampai aku berkubang kecewa diwajah mereka
aku sudah mencoba mengesampingkannya,menghela semua sakit itu
ada sesuatu yang harus ku hidup dengan
kini aku hanya ingin biarkan mereka tersenyum
" When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
And when the broken hearted people
Living in the world agree
There will be an answer, let it be
For though they may be parted
There is still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Yeah there will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Ah let it be, yeah let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
And when the night is cloudy
There is still a light that shines on me
Shine on until tomorrow, let it be
I wake up to the sound of music,
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Yeah let it be, let it be
Let it be, yeah let it be
Oh there will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, yeah let it be
Oh there will be an answer, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Ah let it be, yeah let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be "
Monday, February 28, 2005
"shadow on the sun "
Once upon a time I was of the mind
To lay your burden down
And leave you where you stood
And you believed I could
You'd seen it done before
I could read your thoughts
Tell you what you saw
And never say a word
Now all that is gone
Over with and done - never to return
I can tell you why
People die alone
I can tell you I'm
A shadow on the sun
Staring at the loss
Looking for a cause
And never really sure
Nothing but ahole
To live without a soul
And nothing to be learned
I can tell you why
People go insane
I can show you how
You could do the same
I can tell you why
The end will never come
I can tell you I'm
A shadow on the sun
Shapes of every size
Move behind my eyes
Doors inside my heard
Bolted from within
Every drop flame
Lights a candle in
Memory of the one
Who lives inside my skin
Shadow on the sun
To lay your burden down
And leave you where you stood
And you believed I could
You'd seen it done before
I could read your thoughts
Tell you what you saw
And never say a word
Now all that is gone
Over with and done - never to return
I can tell you why
People die alone
I can tell you I'm
A shadow on the sun
Staring at the loss
Looking for a cause
And never really sure
Nothing but ahole
To live without a soul
And nothing to be learned
I can tell you why
People go insane
I can show you how
You could do the same
I can tell you why
The end will never come
I can tell you I'm
A shadow on the sun
Shapes of every size
Move behind my eyes
Doors inside my heard
Bolted from within
Every drop flame
Lights a candle in
Memory of the one
Who lives inside my skin
Shadow on the sun
Friday, February 18, 2005
akan tak bermaksud
tak tahu kemana cahaya itu akan pergi ,tampak redup sekali sekarang ,tak tahu..,lihat sekali lagi ,bukan tampak muram bukan tampak terang ...sebegitu burukah jika senja ingin kembali menjadi fajar ,hingga tak satu apa bisa menyala nya...,bukan keparat macam bintang ,yang merampas dengan buas segala milik bulan ,dengan sama sekali tak mau sadar,hanya itu yang dimilikinya ...hanya itu !!!
bulan hanya ingin menyala dengan redup tak perlu terang ,tak usah berkilau ,hanya redup !!! tak melebihi bayangannya ,langit akan tampak sepi esok...
bulan hanya ingin menyala dengan redup tak perlu terang ,tak usah berkilau ,hanya redup !!! tak melebihi bayangannya ,langit akan tampak sepi esok...
bibi harus jadi pejantan
mungkin untuk direnungkan
kegagalan selalu menjadi tumpuan
tak ada lagi pijakan
langkah ini pada siapa sandarkan
berjalan tertatih mencari pegangan
setangkup jiwa enggan bersemayam
dengarkan curah kisah kelam
dalam helai jubah muram
waktu kecewa tiada peduli
maksud hati tiada dimengerti
raga terkunci tiada ditemani
seperti mati sepi sendiri
dunia jauh mengabur
hanya angin lalang pergi entah kemana
datang bertandang lalu hilang tanpa arah
kegagalan selalu menjadi tumpuan
tak ada lagi pijakan
langkah ini pada siapa sandarkan
berjalan tertatih mencari pegangan
setangkup jiwa enggan bersemayam
dengarkan curah kisah kelam
dalam helai jubah muram
waktu kecewa tiada peduli
maksud hati tiada dimengerti
raga terkunci tiada ditemani
seperti mati sepi sendiri
dunia jauh mengabur
hanya angin lalang pergi entah kemana
datang bertandang lalu hilang tanpa arah
Monday, February 14, 2005
Sunday, February 06, 2005
Monday, January 31, 2005
jam enam pagi
Benarkah tawa atau tangis itu seharusnya ada ...
Apakah ada yang salah dengan keheningan ...
Mereka selalu berbicara tentang hitam atau putih ,
Tentang benar atau salah ,baik atau buruk ...
Tak seinginpun mereka diam atau sekedar bertanya tanpa ingin jawaban !!!
Mereka bahkan tak tahu untuk apa mereka bertanya atau bercerita .
Kata kata yang selalu membuat gusar..!!!
Tutup mulutmu,dengarkan aku saat aku berbicara ...
(Jelas sekali kulihat mereka tak tahu sedikitpun isi mulut mereka !! meyedihkan !!)
Berkiblat pada bayangan yang sekejap terlintas di kepala mereka ,bukankah ...
Ini hariku .
Apakah ada yang salah dengan keheningan ...
Mereka selalu berbicara tentang hitam atau putih ,
Tentang benar atau salah ,baik atau buruk ...
Tak seinginpun mereka diam atau sekedar bertanya tanpa ingin jawaban !!!
Mereka bahkan tak tahu untuk apa mereka bertanya atau bercerita .
Kata kata yang selalu membuat gusar..!!!
Tutup mulutmu,dengarkan aku saat aku berbicara ...
(Jelas sekali kulihat mereka tak tahu sedikitpun isi mulut mereka !! meyedihkan !!)
Berkiblat pada bayangan yang sekejap terlintas di kepala mereka ,bukankah ...
Ini hariku .
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
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